My Life

Royalshit. No but "Shit" YES, YES, YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I cut my hair a few days ago. Damn, I'm still ugly.

I had a wonderful day. So filled with happiness. I woke up this morning at 8:oo. Yay!!!!

I have a stalker and it's driving me crazy. Early Saturday Morning, about 3:30 a.m., I wake up to the ringing phone. As I go racing to it, I noticed there's 3 messages on the phone already. When I put the receiver next to my ear, all I get is the radio blasting but as I listened I can hear my stalker singing too. This makes me mad as hell. All the calls came from him too. I f**king value my sleep and after a few minutes I called him back. I gave him a earful. I also call later that day {1:00}to make sure he realize that he called so early that morning. He did.

I thought he got memo large and clear not to call so much. As least that what he said. But he didn't. I went to Wal-Mart last night and by the time I got back, there were 4 messages from him. And that's not the bad part. He came all the way over to my place. He knocked and went all the way out to "old" wal-mart before turning around. If he only came a little further....

I got another call today. He sounds so depressed but I can't help it. He is so damn controlling.

Frigging crap almighty!!! I lost my damn wallet today when I check out a book at the town library. I didn't realize it until I went to the university library and no wallet to be found. I hate myself!!!!!!!!!!! Awwwwww!!!!!!!! :^{

Starting day 8, cig-free. Been eating way to much. Going for a walk today and chewing gum instead of stuffing my face with sweets. Christmas is nearly here and I don't have any gifts for my family. Dresses for my Ruby is so expensive. I wish I had somewhere else to shop at besides Wal-mart. :^( Awww!!!!

Hopefully this will be my last day of smoking. I have to go out today to get some last minute helping aids. I have to keep my bedroom door closed when I'm in here so I can smoke. Pagen can't come in and it makes me sad cause I love kitty cats!!!!

I am not doing this alone. I joined a group on You-tube and we are all supporting one another. At midnight tonight, we will all quit together. 52 members so far. It wouldn't have happen but thank's to Zipster08, it has!!! His partner died three years ago with cancer and he's our inspiretion to this crasy idea. Go check him out please.

In other news, I have moved. I have all my junk in one room!!! I now have cable!!! It feels so good to watch a clear picture on all channels. Even have HBO and Showtime. I am now my own boss!!!

I miss my Ruby.Now you can see her in my arms!!!

I've got two new userpics...he he he

I miss my Ruby. I love hearing her voice through the phone nearly every day but that's not the same as seeing her beautiful face when she is learning about life's little treasures. She has discovered her feet and she loves taking baths!!!

You can really tells my daughter's love when she is getting Ruby a bath. The way that she holds her tiny head while allowing my precious Ruby time to move her little arms and legs. No rushing and to see Ruby smile while having "FUN" makes me very very happy. I love my little family!!!!

I miss my Ruby.

Jesus Christ!!!! Now they tell us that the oil problem could have been prevented. Do you think they knew it? Are you kidding me!!!!! AAAAhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, it just never ends.

Hope Congress pats itself on the back for not increasing the min. wage!!!!!! Damn their eyes!!!!!!!!!